Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Catching Up....







The past few weeks have been a blurr.....Adam and I drove to Phoenix on a quick turn around trip to pick up some furniture my MaMa Auten had. We left on a Sat a.m. and arrived in Phx and headed over to my Aunts at 3 pm, visited, loaded furniture, ate at my brothers restaurant, slept and headed out the next day at 6 a.m. to return home. It was great to have such wonderful time with Adam.

When my MaMa Auten passed, my Aunt Dixie and Uncle Bill needed furniture for their mobile home in beautiful Kachina Village (Flagstaff, AZ). A few years after they set up, my mom and dad purchased a mobile home 2 doors down and we spent some really wonderful times there.....we would go up on weekends to visit when we were in town and both Adam and Kristen spent many fun summer days up with them and cousins and friends.

Uncle Bill passed last February my Aunt (after some water damage) decided to close up their place and saved the 2 pieces for me that I wanted so bad (34 years!) - a drop leaf table and her dresser. The dresser and table were old old old when my MaMa Auten had them so they are really ancient pieces. Not the kind that you would see on 'Antique Roadshow' but just sentimental to me.

My MaMa Auten had a tiny gingerbread like house and it was about 20' x 20' total. Since she did not have a lot of room she had to maximize every inch/space. The window panes were beveled glass and it had crystal doorknobs. It had a front porch where we sat in the evenings and a back porch where we sat in the a.m.'s. We did a lot of porch sitting - either just the two of us talking or waiting for our ride to church or the grocery store on Wednesdays for double stamps!, watching people come and go from the Dairy Queen or with all the families and cousins sprawled all over her porch, concrete slab or lawn! I can still hear all the voices, laughter and how exciting it was for us kids when my dad or my uncle would give us a dollar as we would go to the DQ and buy dipped cones for 5 cents and it would feed 20 of us! We would make the trip back and forth delivering the yummy treats.

Inside the back door it had a tiny kitchen with an apartment size stove and refrigerator. That is where the drop leaf table was and we ate all our meals there. She was an awesome cook - a real country cook - everything was made from scratch - gravy, biscuits, pies, coconut cakes, etc. On the side is where she stored her dishes and kept her silverware in a bread box (have it). I would help her line the shelves with paper every spring and she got the kind that would fold over so a trim would hang off the shelf - lots of times birds as I remember. After church on Sundays she would get out her ice tea glasses (which I have) and make tea on the stove and poor in the glasses so we would cool off on hot Sunday days while our Sunday dinner cooked away. She had a medicine chest on the wall with a mirror and a chair underneath and I would stand on the chair and watch her cook, or stand on the chair and help her do dishes in 2 dishpans, then we would throw the dishwater out on the lawn - she was way ahead of the time for recycling!

The room next to it was a really tiny living room. She had a 'divan' and on the wall were her collection of plates and salt and pepper collections (have those). She also had a table with a tv on it (have the table) and a rocking chair (have it). In the winter she would move the divan under the window and put up her little gas stove with heating grids as she did not have central air or heat. She would light the stove with a match scratched on a rock (I have the stove, grates and even the rock!) I would stay in bed while she light the stove and then she would call me out to warm up!

Through the door and to the right was a tiny bathroom. The bathtub was a ball and claw cast iron tub - which was stolen after she passed. She did not have hot water and had to heat up my bath water in a dishpan on the stove in the kitchen and carry it into the bathroom and pour it into the tub. On the bathroom wall was a paper poem of MOTHER - M is for the many ways.....etc - wish I had that! All us little cousins were so afraid to go into that bathroom when it was dark and the roaches would come up from the bathtub drain and fly around when shocked by the light.

Outside the bathroom was her tiny bedroom. On the right was her huge white dresser. She kept her pocketbook in the right had top drawer and a box of chocolate covered turtle candy in the bottom drawer. I was not tall enough to even see the top of her dresser if was standing next to it but if I stood in the other room I could. It had long tall legs and a mirror on top. (This is the dresser my Aunt gave me and I was and am shocked at how small it is....they did cut off the legs and misplaced the mirror but the drawers are soooo tiny. I can remember her struggling to pull the huge drawer out and it is really only about 20 inches across - more like a chest of drawers). Next to the dresser was a walk in like narrow closet that I was always too afraid to go into. Then the wall across the back had her full length mirror (have that) and a cuckoo clock on top (my cousin John has that). She had a table where she did all her sewing as she did custom sewing and tailoring. The metal bed frame was against the other wall and she had a nightstand next to it with an old radio we would listen to when we went to bed. When sewing she would lay the fabric out on her bed and cut out the patterns. She made all kinds of beautiful clothes for ladies and they would come for fittings and she saved all the scraps in a scrap bag for me to play with.

So anyway, so happy to get these two pieces. I am not doing a thing to the dresser and you can see by the picture it is in my guest room, good to go. The table will be painted this weekend and distressed - will show an update when I get it finished!
I am so grateful to have all these pieces of hers and especially for the memories they all evoke when I see them.

Just Dance!


I just love this picture of Brody and Kristen dancing and had to share it!
It just says it all.....

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Apricots!!!




One of my August rituals when I visit my parents is to pick hundreds of apricots at an abandonded tree near their house. It breaks my heart to see them wasted and rotting on the ground. The tree offers up thousands every year and I try and save as many as I can for my mom to make into yummy apricot jam.
Every time I pick them I am reminded of the song the kids sang when they were little because the flowers looked so much like popcorn...

I looked at the window and what did I see?
Popcorn popping on the Apricot tree
Spring had brought me such a sweet surprise
Popcorn popping right before my eyes....
I'd like to pick a handful
have a special treat
a popcorn ball would sure taste sweet!
But it wasn't so....tho it seemed to be....Popcorn popping on the Apricot Tree!

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Dylanism: Mt. Rainer is Stinked!











I was out walking this a.m. and 'thinking about things' as Dylan says.....I love his Dylanism's....








After reading books for naptime, 'GiGi, let's talk about things'








After doing something wrong "I did a very bad thing'








"Of Course' when you ask him something.......who's boy are you? 'GiGi's boy"....and so many many more.








Weeks before we went to Seattle he saw a program on volcano's and was fascinated (he is 4). He asked a million questions all about them, etc. When we decided to go to Seattle he was excited and then said "Hey GiGi - isn't that where that Mt. Rainer Volcano is"? (what a memory he has). I said yes, and he said 'I don't want to go because it will erupt'. I tried to explain to him that it was dormant and he said, 'what does that mean' - I said like extinct - not going to happen....he thought about it a minute and then said 'Gigi - are you sure Mt. Rainer is Stinked?'

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Sturgis.....It's complicated.....

Steve took off today @ 5:30 a.m. for days and days and days to and around Sturgis and back.

For Him: This is a good thing - he can ride his motorcycle all he wants, hang out with his guy friends, drink, party, check out the biker chicks, listen to Rock music, take rides around the area - he and an estimated 35,000+ fellow bikers for the 70th anniversary of Sturgis/Harley Davidson, staying at the one and only renown Buffalo Chip Campground.

For Me: It's complicated. I just don't get it. From the day he bought his first bike (2000) until now I struggle with the Whys, and maybe there is no answers to the Whys. It was a defining moment for me and one I was forced to deal with, something that I disagreed with, didn't want and felt that my opinion and choice did not matter - it was happening.....

I tried/try to be esoteric and say that what he chooses is not a choice over me or what interests I would like to share as a couple and try not to take offense to it - but that honestly does not resonate with me....not sure I believe it and I struggle with it....something about the choice/s make me, my thoughts and feelings, feel rejected, not important, not valued.....being raw here. I don't like feeling that way.....


Believe me, I do not believe couples should be together 7x24x365...however, it certainly makes me think what fun things we could do/have done together while he was doing things on his own on his bike. I have heard 'Get on the Bike and Go', but this was never an option for me (seen too many, heard too many tragic motorcycle accidents). This was discussed many times before bike #1 came home (how about a classic car instead - something we both can enjoy?).... we still have many interests we share, traveling, camping, Friday nights with the Grand kids, etc.

He has talked about selling his bike when he returns from his pilgrimage, referring to the fact that it is because I am not thrilled about the bike, but that does not hold water, my feelings did not matter when he bought bike #1; they should not matter if he sells his bike (#2)...don't hang that one on me.

I am not a victim, not seeking any consolation, do not want any pity, am not angry nor upset....this one falls in the category of things that make you go hmmmmmmm and wonder about it and try to figure out the actions and my feelings....it is the way I feel, not what it is or how it can be changed or fixed, or even if it needs to be. I admit I have often been judged as over analyzing situations (guilty as charged).

For Him: I do hope he is safe and has a really good time and it is all he hopes it will be. He works hard and this is something he really wanted to do ~ so good for him.

For Me: Still a work in progress.....and pretty bittersweet

Sunday, August 1, 2010

What's Yellow, made of wood and had 26 years of dust on it?



Brody is such a little daddy....he loves Mickey Mouse and Minnie Mouse and puts them to bed , hauls them all around - inside and out....drives them around in his car, pulls them in the wagon, feeds them and believe me they have had many many washings and are loved to pieces....

......going back in time my little girl (Brody's mommy) at age 2 was such a little mommy and loved her cabbage patch kids and put them to bed and hauled them all around. They all had different personalities and 2 of the dolls would fight constantly (according to Kristen).

So.....during my insomnia one night I remembered when we moved to San Diego I had saved Kristens little wooden yellow bunk bed she played with when she was the same age as Brody (2). Steve and I drug it down from the rafters and cleaned it up and Kristen did her first sewing project - making blue Mickey Mouse blankets for Brody to cover his Mickey and Minnie.

I could not resist finding a picture of Kristen at the same age playing the the same toy and enjoying it so much.

Also nice to let go of some of my 'organized hoarding' treasurers =)

The Price was Right!




Love my new little treasure? Yesterday when Steve and I were making our way to Home Depot for our weekly title of 10% of our income - we drove by the neighbor on the corner and as we waved we saw he was having a yard sale - mostly motorcycle stuff and guy stuff and on the table I eyed this white birdhouse like item.....so I thought if he was still out when we drove back home I would look at it.....and an hour later when we turned the corner it was still there.



We stopped and visited and I saw that it was in great shape and was a candle holder inside (tea light) and at some point the candles must have spilled as wax was everywhere on the beveled glass inside. When I asked the price - he said - 'I want you to have it, bring me down a beer sometime' so when we got home I sent Steve down with a beer and cleaned up my new little treasure. Paid in full, thank you very much!



I think it fits perfectly in my living room and love the white contrast against the taupe walls. I also think it works with my birdcage too.....



I need to find the perfect picture for my shell frame - another thing on my long and winding list....